Zephaniah 3:17 " The Lord your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing."

So, I really like this blog. Because nobody reads it haha, and I can just put my thoughts in to words, so its basically a win/win. If one day someone does happen to read it, hopefully by that time I will be well on my way to not caring what others think of me..until then haha i suppose Im taking baby steps towards that goal.

Its funny because I was walking into the Titusville BCC campus on tuesday, and first let me start off by explaining the weather conditions. You know the expression raining cats and dogs? Well..it was raining horses and cows..and basically elephants, cuz it was raining hard. And if you have ever been to the titusville campus after it rains, you will know that a small lake forms between the parking lot, and the building. well there is only one problem..getting across this "lake."

Well i walked through it earlier that day, and was soaked and covered in mud..i had to change and later that night I found myself in the same situation..I didnt know how to get to the building..so i proceeded to walk through the lake yet AGAIN. why..im not sure.

So i was wearing sandals..backless sandals. and they of course got muddy and wet, and as i got up closer to the building my shoes began to slip off my feet. One would come off..then the other. Emabassed I out them back on and proceeded to walk.. it happend again. and again. and again. and idk why i just explained this whole story but the moral of the story was i was embarressed for the dumbest reason ever.. and one day I hope stupid stuff like that doesnt embarrass me..

Anyways on to the reason im writing this haha..I have been ridiculously stressed about UF. Which is where I want to go..but I dont find out if I got in until next friday. a week. so I have been praying a lot about being calm and letting God take control and whatever he wills me to do, I will. Well, trying to calm myself down doesnt do me much good, because the fact is that Im nervous, and I feel like only he has the power to really set me at ease. I was reading and came across the versee up thereee ^^^ and the one line really stuck out to me. "He will quiet you with his love." Thats just the best ya know? when you need something and BAM. he puts it there. lol I realize how gay I sound..but i dont care. And He delights in me? ha all i can say is how the heckk can he delight in ME? im a freakinn messss. but he does. and i am thankful beyond belief. and I am trying, more than ever, and these things are just becoming important to me, and my heart is just now taking notice of the little things and the ways that God tries to speak to me. All I can say is..better now that never.

So I sit here on Sunday night in my room, sitting here on my computer and im currently listening to Anis Mojgani. Hes the best, but thats beside the point. My weekend was great, and life is good. No complaints here.

My Friday evening consisted of orlando with the family, and good conversation. Saturday was absolutely beautiful, but I was stuck inside packing up my cluttered closet, getting ready for a big change for my family. Saturday night I went to CCV with some great friends, and enjoyed dinner, laughs, and fun times with them. I ended my weekend with a great church service in Titusville, my soon to be stepbrother was baptized and it was great. The weekend was great and i am content.

I am pleasantly surprised at how great my life has been going and how much more i enjoy things when I am not tempted by partying. It took a certain someone to show me that my life is much more with the absence of these things. Although that young man is no longer as great an influence on my life, God has a purpose for everything. And since this said "influence", I have a desire to please God, and to live a life that reflects this claim. I am not perfect nor will I ever be, but I am trying much more than I have ever before. I caution myself on my speech, and my actions as well.

God has a plan, and I'm trying my hardest to trust in him. He's a good guy. :) PEACE.

Okay so let me just start off by saying that writing this makes me think of the twix commercial. The one where the guy is embarassing himself so he "thinks it over" with twix and then tells the girl he thought she was the kind of person who liked to "blog about her ideals". Anyways that sounds really gay so i dont really wanna "blog about my ideals" rather just say whats on my mind..

So my brother has really taught me a lot lately. This is super odd and rare let me tell youu. Lately he's been complaining and just basically saying his life sucks. And im sure every 13 year old thinks that their life sucks, but the light is soo at the end of the tunnel..they just cant see it yet ha. Basically, his complaining has made me appreciate our life more. My brother and I are fortunate kids. We always have food to eat, clothes to wear, and a roof over our heads. In addition to those things..we have everything we could possibly want or need, and thats A LOT. Im not going to pretend like ive never had a pity party for myself, but lately i cant possibly think of any reason why I should. I have great parents, great friends, and a future thats looking pretty bright, at least I hope. I eat good food, go to a great school that I wont fully appreciate til i leave, and I am just all around fortunate.

Its so easy to feel bad for ourselves. Im pretty sure everyone can find something to harp on or dwell on, but there is so much more than that. With our disadvantages set aside, we are some lucky individuals. Tonight I put on sweatpants and a t-shirt, and I baked cookies and watched a movie with two good friends. I forget how fun those little things are. Laughing at stupid movies, and eating chocolate chip cookies til you feel sick are simple things that I forget to appreciate. So my friends..this first blog is pretty lameee, but its what is on my mind tonight, im thankful..and thats just plain it. :)